work ends.school starts.

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so my job contract ended ystrdy and i miss d kids oreadi cuz i was teaching a K2 class n it was alil sad for all K2 teachers ystrdy. no doubt i taught my class Sea Otter 1 for 5 mths only, i did get attched to them. though there were tymes i questioned was i was doing. no hard feelings when v parted ways cuz afta all they were kids all the same. and there is juz so much more to kindergarten then wad we presume. considering how i spend 4 hrs wif them everyday, learning child psychology @ the same tyme, learning more abt children's needs, about the parents, u simply gota respect the pre school teachers. people often have a higher regard for the upper level teachers. i feel parents simply disrespect the latter who literally slave to ensure that children receive a strong foundation before entering the primary schools. i did learn a little myself first hand as i was teaching there. and these teachers give their all to the kids and receive so little in return. in terms of money and respect i mean.

all went all 4 me though. i worked 5 mths. learnt a lil. met afew good people. hpefully didnt piss anybody @ work. and found more tuition assignments. haha. some of my K2 students want me to tutor them next yr when for primary 1. so cute lar. @ least i get to c my kids this way.

now ive gota give my all to school esp since it has been cloz to 2 mths since sch started n i basically duno wad d hell im studying. since ive got no tuition for the next few weeks n no more work might as well use the tyme to realli study. SIGHS.!!.

sian

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1 wk 2 diwali
2 wks since my 23rd bdae
3 more wks to finish up 21 portfolios for the K2 kids
7 wks for my contract to end.
damn sian. haiz,

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im looking 4wrd to spending quality tyme wif sissies tis weekend. afta eyons v're meeting. so very excited. though im broke. itssss gona be fun. :).

i wonder....

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as much as i claim tt im all independent n dun depend on anyone....cant help wondering if he actually misses me now.cuz hez in reserves for 5 days n v havent toked at all since. i wonder if he misses me....n now tt i do miss him i wonder if tis is a sign of anything at all.
the more i think the more confused i get!.

totally random

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had a mani n pedi 2dy after eyons,in pink.y pink i realli duno.wish it was sth darker now,haiz.but is alryte,if i cant stand it 2mr i will prolly remove em,busy shopping for work now.amidst rehearsals.it will all b over in 1 week.yea.hpe i dun screw it up by forgeting or sth. boy has gone for reserves.hpe its the correct spelling. ive been thinking alot recently juz bcuz u commit urself for a long long tyme doesnt necessarily mean its meant to be. for all u noe it looks pic purrfect on the outside but full of flaws on the inside.its all empty n broken. so not wad it used to be. so in such a scenario its best to part ways.but smehw parting is tough.to even begin to want to say the words or mean it n actually do the deed.juz not easy.especially wif so many ties together.interwined.next tyme sme1 tells me that they're 2gether for so long i will not go wide eyed n say wahhhhhhh! its juz not as purfect nor easy nor wonderful as it may project.wads imp is tt the parties involved find ways to keep it goin n the chemistry hot.or at least lukewarm so it can be heated up when possible.if its dead cold v're prolly looking at a r/shp beyond resuscitation...i feel love n happily ever after is too over-rated.too hyped up.sth tt in reality is not wad v presume it too be.blame it on the romance novels n happily ever after cartoons n movies.spoilt us too much.screwed us over.v or rather me shld wake up to reality n face the pressures of sustaining all my r/shps juggling everythng wif a smile on my face as if everythingz' fine n dandy. i wonder wads the point of having frens n mantaining r'shps if it looks great on the outside but inside its all fake.all pretend.v dun talk the same language anymore.not on the same wavelenght.nobody bothers to update nor keep in touch.d only tyme ure needed is wen u break up or nd sme1 to cry to in the middle of the nyte.other than tt when ure happy n all u dun bother to share it ard. u spread the sorrow but refuse to do the same when ure happy. so many secrets . n so many backstabbers too. ive got a wierd bunch of frens.really.many many wierd wierd r'ships i have.how sad.
totally random.
too much of sex n the city.
n ive finally completed all 6 seasons of it again.2nd tyme round.

i only want 2 things tis yr!

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1.) i wanna grad.get outaf uni...do sth else
i wana clear all my units tis term or @ least clear most. it was a shitty sem afta all

2.) i wanna a blissful happy love life...n if tis is nt meant to be...gimme a huge hint now...so i can find sth else!

drowsy

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6 mths into the yr. another 6 more b4 a new yr begins; wad haf i dne so far........lemme c

fin my yr 2 exams and so NOT looking 4wrd to a 4th yr in uni
tucked myself into a job tt ive gota commit till dec 09
got more tuition kids
got myself sick. still am sick nw btw...despite drowsy meds i cnt sleep.so here i am
commited myself to dance.
commited myself to a performance tis june 26th
commited myself to a r/shp still goin on.5 yrs counting despite the many 'ITCHES' along the yr ( my sis n shaz wld understd tt)

n ttz it.i still havent contributed anything to world peace nor any social deed of any kind. i still havent called amc to tok despite me saying im goin to...not tt i hate u now or i fought wif amc am i not calling...i havent bot the damn calling card lar. but i miss u sissy. i shall c if i can haul my lazy body to 7/11 to buy it....i hpe ure reading my blog still...i havent met up wif losaf ppl still,rape n pendek,lan n ndp, soon soon....wld b great to c u guys soon. afta all ive got 3 mths to socialize ryte.yea.

im off to bed now.
so tired.